So God revealed to me something last night. He has revealed that the entire time I have been searching for my identity, and searching for the people I was to associate myself with in my life, it has been from the world’s perspective and not God’s perspective. I had been searching the ins and outs of much of the high school demographics that are out there simply trying to be a guy that fit in. That consumed nearly 3 years of my high school career. Don’t get me wrong; it wasn’t as if I was frivolously bouncing around Chiles High School with no solid friends, I had great ones. But I still somehow sought primary acceptance from many different people. The entire time I had been doing this, it never once occurred to me that this is who I truly was, that this was my identity in Christ. It just so has happened that I find myself to have an extreme love for people. There is not one person that I can openly say that I do not like them as a person. There are those, however, that I don’t agree with the way they may do things. But, as far as disliking people for who they are, I can’t seem to think of why that is ever necessary. It struck me that this unexplainable love is the reason that I have been opening myself to the diversity of a high school, not the fact that I wanted to fit in. But this is, without a doubt, the person has called me to be; and it feels great!
Another interesting thing God has revealed to me is that I am not your everyday high school student or your everyday Christ follower. When people see a high school student in their domain, they think they can lock up everything about them and know who exactly they are. For example, if the average person were to see someone at a party where people were drinking, they are thought to be able to expect that, in fact, this person is a partier without even thinking about getting to know them. This classification is never a good call unless you know enough about a person or you know them personally because, not everyone knows everyone’s motives for doing certain things. As stated in the previous paragraph, I see myself as someone who is not associated with one particular group and this part of the reason why I see a difference between the ways I present myself and another guy presents himself that shares the same beliefs. I thank God everyday for making me who I am and I thank him everyday for making you who you are. Because, being the best of who you are to the best of your ability is the greatest way to see what God has for you in this life.
